It’s times like these that I question myself of why I rush home to you. I continue to set myself up for hurt and pain and I don’t know why. Why rush home so that you can show me that you are emotionless. Why rush home to have your stress taken out on me. I give and give and it’s still not enough. I’m so tired of feeling like I have to walk on eggshells for you when you don’t appreciate anything. It’s honestly killing me.
I honestly don’t know what to think…things are good right now but during these times it’s almost always too good to be true. Some things you say don’t add up and maybe I’m just severely over-thinking some things but then again some things just don’t add up. It would be easier if she left but then again God doesn’t make trials easy for a reason and I will triumph just you wait. As much as I want to trust that you are telling me the truth I just can’t, and because of this I must guard my heart and distance my love. I cannot take another heartbreak from you. I just can’t.